Sometimes.....Life is Sucks

The best part in life is when I could be around my best best friend(s) and my big family! Yeah, they are the key of my happiness. They can make me smile, make me laugh, they support me when I am down. No doubt.
I love being around my lovely people. But, I don't know why sometimes mom forbid me for being around them. Hey, mom, I am 16th years old now. I can't always be with you. I have my own world as a teenager. Please, I just want to be more mature, I want to spend my time with my friends. How if today or tomorrow is the last day for me to see my friends? We always meet everyday. But with my friends? No. I have a lot of friends. I need to hang-out with them. I just want to be free. I am a senior high student now. It's time for me to feel my world. My teen world. I can't just be with you everyday, mom, dad. I have my own world! Sorry, if I disappointing you.

And for those who talk behind me, read this:
You might say anything about me. Especially the bad one. You have to know, that, there's something about me that you can never be. And don't ever dream to be me. Cause however hard you try, you'll fail. Cause I am who I am. You are who you are. We both have different world.

One Wish. One Hope

I have to tell this, I MISS TARAKANITA SO MUCH! Well, there's a lot of things that i miss from my ex-school. Yeah, I had been in Tarakanita, since I was in Playgroup and I had to get out from there for continue my Senior High School. Yeah, I chose Stella Maris Int'l School to continue my school. And I've just realized, that I have choose the wrong school. Yeah, I thought Stella Maris Int'l will give the best for me, you know, I have to pay about 3 million rupiah per-month, but I don't get what I suppose to. Well, yeah I get a class with 2 air-conditioner for each class, I get a good tables and chairs, I easily improve my english there, but stuffs aren't enough. I need a good academy to be a good man in the future! Now, I realize that I miss my ex-school so much. I miss the toilet, even I have to get the worst smell ever, but, I miss it a lot. I miss all the teachers. I miss being in the class, even there's no air-conditioner and we use tables and chairs from the wood. But I miss it much much much. I miss all of my friends; my juniors also. I miss them :( I miss join school's basketball competition. I miss bring a lot of books in my big backpack. I miss use a white board. And....I want to use the gray skirt, that symbolized me as a Senior High's student. If God gives me one chance to make my wish comes true, I'll wish to get back to Tarakanita! Although people say that Tarakanita isn't good enough, or people say there are a lot of alay, or anything else, I still love being there.
Oh God, can you help me? I know everything happens for a reason. But, what are your reason to made me chose Stella Maris Int'l? Why you did not ask my heart to tell me to go to Tarakanita? Please help me to pass all of this complicated stuffs and things in Stella Maris :(